This is another late post. Wrote this last Friday, March 9.
Went to my OB earlier with mommy for another checkup. For the entirety of my pregnancy, it was my first prenatal checkup accompanied by mom. Doc told me that we couldn't actually force Uno to come out if he still doesn't want to and that all we could do is to wait.
That is why I'm conditioning myself for another week of waiting. If he still doesnt come out by Friday next week, we would have to go through another BPS to make sure he's still doing fine inside.
While waiting, I'm actually preparing myself as well if ever things would not go as planned like an emergency C-section or a highly-induced labor so that I'd be prepared emotionally and physically. I'm still praying and hoping though that things will be normal the way we pictured it.
It's a good thing that mom's around although not on a daily basis. Just having her there keeps the blues away and waiting a little less stressful. She's encouraging me to be more patient and worry less. Talking to her actually diverts my attention to other things. I'm glad to hear from her stories back home like how kulit Xander is already, their plans of renovating the house, business ideas and other family stuff. I know it would be another long period again that I'd hear news back home after i give birth since kali and I won't be able to go to laguna weeks (and even months) after Uno's birth.
Friday. Slumber king.
Tonight is just one ordinary night. As I've predicted it, Kali would again hit the sack early. As I'm writing this, he is actually snoring soundly on the other room already. I hope this won't turn into a routine/habit once Uno is out because I want him to spend some time with Uno atleast a few hours after arriving from work and before hitting the sack.
And so here I am. With no one to talk to... Again. It makes me paranoid at times but I have to get over or get used to it.
Tomorrow's another day of waiting. Hopefully, I'll get by with all the impatience and make something productive out of the remaining waiting days.
Til here.
Goodnight. Xoxo
Sabado, Marso 10, 2012
Late Post: 38w 6/7 Impatience Setting In
This is another late post, guys. :)
38 weeks and 6 days
... But my pregnancy app says I'm 39 weeks today. I hate to admit it but I'm getting impatient with each passing day already. I didn't expect that pregnancy's gonna bore me this much. I just want Uno to be out safe and sound because everyday has turned out to be a physical struggle. There are pains everywhere and I had to limit myself from doing so many things alone. As simple as walking, I need someone to be with me.
Tomorrow will be another checkup. At some point, I want to be induced already but of course, my doc would want me to go normal and natural as long as possible.
So, goodluck to me. Haay.
38 weeks and 6 days
... But my pregnancy app says I'm 39 weeks today. I hate to admit it but I'm getting impatient with each passing day already. I didn't expect that pregnancy's gonna bore me this much. I just want Uno to be out safe and sound because everyday has turned out to be a physical struggle. There are pains everywhere and I had to limit myself from doing so many things alone. As simple as walking, I need someone to be with me.
Tomorrow will be another checkup. At some point, I want to be induced already but of course, my doc would want me to go normal and natural as long as possible.
So, goodluck to me. Haay.
Late Post: 38w 5/7 Still Part of the Waiting Game
Yes. Yes. Yes. I'm still on the waiting game part. Uno hasn't arrived just yet and my tummy isn't actually giving me regular contractions at this time. There are moments that I don't know what to feel already. I'm more of getting impatient rather than being excited. I don't know what else to do besides walking to finally switch on these regular contractions.
Or is it just my threshold for pain being too high that I'm experiencing no pain at all? I'm quite starting to think that I'm quite abnormal at this side of my life. My bloody shows have stopped and there are only a few contractions. I dont want to scare myself but I didn't quite expected that this waiting phase is going to be this long. :(
I'm almost 39 weeks. Doc says I'm still okay but with my impatience running, I just could not wait at all.
Or is it just my threshold for pain being too high that I'm experiencing no pain at all? I'm quite starting to think that I'm quite abnormal at this side of my life. My bloody shows have stopped and there are only a few contractions. I dont want to scare myself but I didn't quite expected that this waiting phase is going to be this long. :(
I'm almost 39 weeks. Doc says I'm still okay but with my impatience running, I just could not wait at all.
Late Post: 38w 3/7 Tik-tok
This was written last Sunday, March 2. :)
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Sunday is coming to a close and we're still in a waiting game. I want to stop expecting already but with all the little tummyaches I'm feeling, it's hard not to monitor and just keep mum about it. Just today, I felt an ounce of fear crept thru me. I'm suddenly afraid of what might happen during labor and giving birth. Is this a sign that I'm just a yard away from the Big D-day? Well, with or without this fear, it would be useless denying that I'm actually almost "there". My body's giving me signals that Uno is drawing near and is about to come out any time soon.
I'm feeling dizzy though, like I'm about to go into a fever. I hope I won't be part of the crowd of moms who feel nauseated during labor to the point of vomitting and passing out.
But seriously, I just want this preggy thing to be over and finally meet Uno. So I'm really up for whatever labor and delivery are going to throw at me.
Please come out na, Uno. :)
Everybody's waiting for you already.
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Sunday is coming to a close and we're still in a waiting game. I want to stop expecting already but with all the little tummyaches I'm feeling, it's hard not to monitor and just keep mum about it. Just today, I felt an ounce of fear crept thru me. I'm suddenly afraid of what might happen during labor and giving birth. Is this a sign that I'm just a yard away from the Big D-day? Well, with or without this fear, it would be useless denying that I'm actually almost "there". My body's giving me signals that Uno is drawing near and is about to come out any time soon.
I'm feeling dizzy though, like I'm about to go into a fever. I hope I won't be part of the crowd of moms who feel nauseated during labor to the point of vomitting and passing out.
But seriously, I just want this preggy thing to be over and finally meet Uno. So I'm really up for whatever labor and delivery are going to throw at me.
Please come out na, Uno. :)
Everybody's waiting for you already.
Late Post: A Letter for Uno
This is a late post yet again. :)
I wrote this letter for Uno last March 7. I've been wanting to write him a letter for him to read once he learns how to. So that would be like five to six years from now but I don't really mind. :) At some point, I was teary-eyed while writing this. :) Enjoy and don't cry! :)
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Dear Uno,
I'm writing this on the 38th week and 5th day you being inside my tummy. Yes, son. You've been staying that long already and everyone's just waiting for you to come out. Everyone's excited to meet you and everything has been prepared for your arrival like there's a prince coming to stay in the town.
Your dad also did his part of preparing for you. Just last Monday, he already started his first full-time job and was still accepting out-of-the-office writing jobs for an extra income. I couldn't wait for you to finally meet him too. I assure you that you'll be proud being his son and I'd like you to grow up like him too minus his kasungitan and kapraningan and less his seriousness. Your dad is smart, has a different approach to sweetness, loves being taken cared of and acts comically weird at times. You'll love him coz just like you, he's like a big little kid at heart.
I can't wait for you to meet your cousins too. I'm sure you'll be pogi too just like your kuyas. They are all smart and have their own set of characters and you'll have yours too. I'm sure you'll be unique in every way from them.
You have the best grandparents as well. And unlike the usual two pairs, you have more than 5 lolo's and lola's. They're all cool and sweet.
Your titos and titas are the best in the world too. They've showered you with gifts even before you arrive and i know you'll enjoy them once you're out.
Oh Uno. I could not really wait to finally hold you tight in my arms. I don't promise a perfect world and a perfect life for us but I promise to give you the best of everything this life has to offer. I promise to be the best mom to you and your future sibling(s). I know your dad will promise the same as well because we love you and we only want the best for you. :)
Please don't make it hard for mom during delivery. And always be healthy. If there comes a time that I would not be around, always remember that I'll always be looking after you even if you dont see me.
I love you and never forget that. You're the sole reason why I chose to forget the life I used to live and change for the best.
I'm always here for you and I love you.
Always,
Mommy Yan
I wrote this letter for Uno last March 7. I've been wanting to write him a letter for him to read once he learns how to. So that would be like five to six years from now but I don't really mind. :) At some point, I was teary-eyed while writing this. :) Enjoy and don't cry! :)
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Dear Uno,
I'm writing this on the 38th week and 5th day you being inside my tummy. Yes, son. You've been staying that long already and everyone's just waiting for you to come out. Everyone's excited to meet you and everything has been prepared for your arrival like there's a prince coming to stay in the town.
Your dad also did his part of preparing for you. Just last Monday, he already started his first full-time job and was still accepting out-of-the-office writing jobs for an extra income. I couldn't wait for you to finally meet him too. I assure you that you'll be proud being his son and I'd like you to grow up like him too minus his kasungitan and kapraningan and less his seriousness. Your dad is smart, has a different approach to sweetness, loves being taken cared of and acts comically weird at times. You'll love him coz just like you, he's like a big little kid at heart.
I can't wait for you to meet your cousins too. I'm sure you'll be pogi too just like your kuyas. They are all smart and have their own set of characters and you'll have yours too. I'm sure you'll be unique in every way from them.
You have the best grandparents as well. And unlike the usual two pairs, you have more than 5 lolo's and lola's. They're all cool and sweet.
Your titos and titas are the best in the world too. They've showered you with gifts even before you arrive and i know you'll enjoy them once you're out.
Oh Uno. I could not really wait to finally hold you tight in my arms. I don't promise a perfect world and a perfect life for us but I promise to give you the best of everything this life has to offer. I promise to be the best mom to you and your future sibling(s). I know your dad will promise the same as well because we love you and we only want the best for you. :)
Please don't make it hard for mom during delivery. And always be healthy. If there comes a time that I would not be around, always remember that I'll always be looking after you even if you dont see me.
I love you and never forget that. You're the sole reason why I chose to forget the life I used to live and change for the best.
I'm always here for you and I love you.
Always,
Mommy Yan
Late Post: 38 wks 1/7 - The False Alarm
Note: This is another late post. :)
This was written on March 2, 2012
According to the fetal Uterine age, Uno is now 38 weeks and 1 day. He has yet again exceeded expectations. I've always thought that I'd be giving birth already on my 37th week but Uno just won't give in and not just that, my little man has gained too much weight already. My doctor told me that I need to give birth in the next coming days since Uno's almost 8lbs already. If he gets bigger, I might have a hard time during labor and might undergo unexpected C-section which I don't want to happen really.
I went through IE two times earlier and that was quite violating. Haha. Just kidding! But I bled after. After that, they checked Uno and my contractions using a fetal monitor. So far, I still don't have strong contractions. We did a Bio-physical scan or BPS after to check if Uno's still doing good inside. During a BPS, Moms and babies have to pass four exams:
Baby's breathing, the sonologist would check if he could breathe on his own. Uno was sleeping soundly during the scan so the doctor had to ring a bell on my lower tummy to wake him up. He didn't respond so I was asked to turn and lie on my side a few times.
Hands and feet reflexes: The doctor has to see him move his hands and feet. And because he was sleeping, the bell was rang again on my belly. Good thing that after a few seconds he did respond.
Amniotic Fluid content: Since Uno has taken up so much space in my tummy, it was quite hard for the doctor to measure the amniotic fluid inside. But the results turned out well and showed that I'm not leaking any fluid just yet.
Major Organs. Uno's major organs were checked too. So far, his heart, lungs, liver and kidney are all working well.
While I was undergoing all these tests, my too nervous-excited husband has already announced to the world that I'm inside the labor room already. So everyone who got his message were too excited. Especially my family in Laguna. They all thought of going to Manila already.
It was a false or should I say, a practice birth announcement. Residents told me that my cervix have ripened but still intact. I just passed the mucus plug that's why I found some red spots on my discharge earlier. This though, is a sign that labor is about to start in a few hours or days. :)
This was written on March 2, 2012
According to the fetal Uterine age, Uno is now 38 weeks and 1 day. He has yet again exceeded expectations. I've always thought that I'd be giving birth already on my 37th week but Uno just won't give in and not just that, my little man has gained too much weight already. My doctor told me that I need to give birth in the next coming days since Uno's almost 8lbs already. If he gets bigger, I might have a hard time during labor and might undergo unexpected C-section which I don't want to happen really.
I went through IE two times earlier and that was quite violating. Haha. Just kidding! But I bled after. After that, they checked Uno and my contractions using a fetal monitor. So far, I still don't have strong contractions. We did a Bio-physical scan or BPS after to check if Uno's still doing good inside. During a BPS, Moms and babies have to pass four exams:
Baby's breathing, the sonologist would check if he could breathe on his own. Uno was sleeping soundly during the scan so the doctor had to ring a bell on my lower tummy to wake him up. He didn't respond so I was asked to turn and lie on my side a few times.
Hands and feet reflexes: The doctor has to see him move his hands and feet. And because he was sleeping, the bell was rang again on my belly. Good thing that after a few seconds he did respond.
Amniotic Fluid content: Since Uno has taken up so much space in my tummy, it was quite hard for the doctor to measure the amniotic fluid inside. But the results turned out well and showed that I'm not leaking any fluid just yet.
Major Organs. Uno's major organs were checked too. So far, his heart, lungs, liver and kidney are all working well.
While I was undergoing all these tests, my too nervous-excited husband has already announced to the world that I'm inside the labor room already. So everyone who got his message were too excited. Especially my family in Laguna. They all thought of going to Manila already.
It was a false or should I say, a practice birth announcement. Residents told me that my cervix have ripened but still intact. I just passed the mucus plug that's why I found some red spots on my discharge earlier. This though, is a sign that labor is about to start in a few hours or days. :)
Late Post: Passed the Feb 29 Mark :)
Since Kali and I had decided to temporarily move to UP Bliss while we all wait for Uno to come out, I couldn't update my blog in as much as I wanted to to get past my boredom due to our limited internet connection. We're only using a wi-fi stick which Kuya Tots lend us in case Kali would need to write and comply with the deadlines of his sideline work.
Here is my post for Feb 29 which I wrote using the Notes app of iPhone. I just discovered tonight that there's actually a Blogger App and downloaded it so I can finally post my other remaining journals.
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Today is February 29 and I haven't given birth just yet. I'm way past everyone's expectation that I'll give birth on the leap day, fortunately somehow, Uno held on too tight resisting and failing everyone's assumption that he'll have a leap year for a birthday.
Passing this mark, I couldn't wait but finally give birth. Tomorrow's March 1 already and the bulge just keeps on getting heavier and heavier by the week making it harder for me to sleep at night.
I've been talking to Uno earlier and told him that he can't stay forever in my tummy and that everyone's already excited to meet him.
The news about our neighbor who got married a week ahead of our wedding Date with the wife almost the same due date as I have and Maggie Wilson who I've decided to follow on twitter because we also almost have the same EDD have both given birth already. The former last weekend and the latter just yesterday. Now, I'm all the more pressured to give birth this week. Although I could feel some contractions already and some tearing down there, I'm still waiting for it to be regular and rhythmic. In that way, I'm sure that I already am on the labor stage.
Another reason why I wanted Uno to be out this week is because Kali's about to start with his work next week. I just don't want to give birth without him there. I don't want him to miss that special moment. Although he won't really play a role during delivery, just him being there during my labor and before I give birth is already something big for me and Uno.
Tomorrow, he'll be attending their office orientation and I don't know what would happen in case I give birth within the day and he's not there. I'd be sad for sure because I've already told him that I don't want other people to be there during my labor up until I give birth. Since I don't actually want people to make a fuss out of me giving birth and I don't want to be taken cared of or oblige other people to take care of me. In case I give birth tomorrow, I hope he'll be excused from their orientation. *crossing my fingers*
At the moment, we are waiting for our first lawyer in the group, Christian to arrive. Just today, the bar results have been officially out and he was one of the few who passed. Unfortunately, our other friend Jason did not make it to the quota. I texted him some words of support and encouragement. Hopefully he'll make it on the next bar exams.
Here is my post for Feb 29 which I wrote using the Notes app of iPhone. I just discovered tonight that there's actually a Blogger App and downloaded it so I can finally post my other remaining journals.
...
Today is February 29 and I haven't given birth just yet. I'm way past everyone's expectation that I'll give birth on the leap day, fortunately somehow, Uno held on too tight resisting and failing everyone's assumption that he'll have a leap year for a birthday.
Passing this mark, I couldn't wait but finally give birth. Tomorrow's March 1 already and the bulge just keeps on getting heavier and heavier by the week making it harder for me to sleep at night.
I've been talking to Uno earlier and told him that he can't stay forever in my tummy and that everyone's already excited to meet him.
The news about our neighbor who got married a week ahead of our wedding Date with the wife almost the same due date as I have and Maggie Wilson who I've decided to follow on twitter because we also almost have the same EDD have both given birth already. The former last weekend and the latter just yesterday. Now, I'm all the more pressured to give birth this week. Although I could feel some contractions already and some tearing down there, I'm still waiting for it to be regular and rhythmic. In that way, I'm sure that I already am on the labor stage.
Another reason why I wanted Uno to be out this week is because Kali's about to start with his work next week. I just don't want to give birth without him there. I don't want him to miss that special moment. Although he won't really play a role during delivery, just him being there during my labor and before I give birth is already something big for me and Uno.
Tomorrow, he'll be attending their office orientation and I don't know what would happen in case I give birth within the day and he's not there. I'd be sad for sure because I've already told him that I don't want other people to be there during my labor up until I give birth. Since I don't actually want people to make a fuss out of me giving birth and I don't want to be taken cared of or oblige other people to take care of me. In case I give birth tomorrow, I hope he'll be excused from their orientation. *crossing my fingers*
At the moment, we are waiting for our first lawyer in the group, Christian to arrive. Just today, the bar results have been officially out and he was one of the few who passed. Unfortunately, our other friend Jason did not make it to the quota. I texted him some words of support and encouragement. Hopefully he'll make it on the next bar exams.
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